Not much to say

I ate under 500 calories today.  Not good.  My eating sucks.  I should be eating chicken but it makes my stomach cramp.  I'm going to try better tomorrow, I swear. 

Measurement comparison

August 2nd   Weight= 209                                Oct 7     Weight= 178

Neck     15                                                                       13.75

Arm     15                                                                           12

Boob     44.5                                                                      41

Under Boob   38.5                                                              35

Waist     38.5                                                                       34

Hip     50.25                                                                        45

Thigh     28                                                                            25

Calf     17                                                                             15.25

Ankle     10                                                                          9.75

That's 31 inches overall lost in about 2 months. Thats funny because its also 31 pounds lost in the same timeframe. I have 38 pounds left to lose before I get to my first goal, 140 pounds. Well, writing that down really makes it real.  Only 38 left, unbelievable. Overall I feel pretty good.  Yesterday someone actually called me "regular sized"......doesnt sound like much but to me it means I'm no longer the biggest ass in the room. Yay me.

Is it today already?

Finished my latest round of antibiotics today, thank goodness.  The pills were tearing my poor stomach up.  I feel okay ( I say that tentively) and am just taking it one day at a time.  I bought some vanilla protein powder to try and up my protein intake per day.  I have to say, I made this milk/powder/banana shake this morning and had a hard time getting even half of it down.  It tasted putrid, uber-sweet and too banana-y.  Will try other combinations because I just need to find some way to keep my body from eating itself. I'm down to 178 as of this morning. My brain function has improved for short periods of time, I guess thats better than total shutdown.  I still find that I have NO motivation to study and Joe has taken it apon himself to give me a shove now and then. 

Anyway, gotta go get dinner ready. Tata.

Tuesday

That's me.  Confuzed monkey.  My brain isnt working right, its like theres pudding where my grey matter used to be.  I went over my bloodwork and know that I'm anemic, no big deal.  The big deal is a few of my other values, the ones about blood and cell production, are not good.  I think it can be attributed to my low protein intake but I'm not sure.  I'm adding an extra vitamin and may buy some new supplements next payday.  My kidney feels better today.  I'm drinking alot of water and will start adding lemon juice to it, the acid in the lemons will keep other infections away.

School is ok, I kind of just muddle through, trying to pay attention and yet my mind cant seem to focus. Its scary and frustrating.

Anyway, time to go. Tata.