Gastric Bypass

Ok, I'm fat.  I know this, its not a new revelation.  I've dieted my whole life. What a waste of time.  I'm still fat.  Anyway, my doctor seems to think I need gastric bypass.  I was abit taken back when she said it.  I mean, thats alot like someone you just met offering you a foot rub.  I had never really considered Bypass. But since she's brought it up, I can think of nothing else.  I mean, it scares me. Just the thought of someone cutting my stomach down to the size of my thumb.  That shit is pretty permanent. I dunno. Sounds dangerous to me. So, I start Googling it, searching for good and bad.  Well, I found alot of bad.  Almost a 2% death rate........thats a huge amount of people.  Some of them suffer for up to 8 weeks before they kick off. Crikey. So, I will be catagorically turning down this opprotunity.  I choose life.  I mean, dont get me wrong, it has a certain appeal.  Alot of the stories I read were people who lost all the weight and have no complications.  It would be a dream come true if someone could assure me 100% that I wasnt going to die.  Also, eating a thimble full of food 6X a day is just friggin stupid.  Who can do that?  I love food too much.  I think if I had to, I could do it but I wouldnt be very happy.

That said, I am still fat. I'm unhappy with my body but right now I just dont have the energy to change it.  If my doctor offers me a gym membership and a personal chef, I'll definately take him up on it.  Until I can get myself back into the right frame of mind I'll just do what I can. That sounds sad doesnt it.?  I dont mean it that way. I'm actually pretty happy overall, my life does not suck. 

Well, I re-read this post and it does sound pretty depressing. Sorry. Not intended. 

Tata!