Scary needle

I fasted last night and this morning for my scary needle bloodwork this morning.  No eating ,drinking, etc..........oh, but by  the way, you'll have to pee in a cupp too. Huh?  I think I may need to ingest some water for that. Ok, well, start drinking now.  Damn, I'm gonna be here all day.  < I drink and drink and only succeed in making myself nauseaous and waterlogged.> No pee. Hmmmmm , maybe walking with help. <walk,walk,walk>  After 3 tries, there is finally enough in the cup for testing.  I hate the hospital lab.  I was coming out of the bathroom and a guy was standing right there watching me walk out with my tiny specimen. Not really embarrassing......just weird. You give him that "hi-dont-look-at-my-pee" smile. Ugh.

Anyway, its raining and raining. Joe is home. Every 5 minutes he has to tell me how much he hates the rain.  I swear, I think I liked it better when he was gone 6 months of the year. I start school next Monday, I'm so looking forward to it.

Tata.

Gastric Bypass

Ok, I'm fat.  I know this, its not a new revelation.  I've dieted my whole life. What a waste of time.  I'm still fat.  Anyway, my doctor seems to think I need gastric bypass.  I was abit taken back when she said it.  I mean, thats alot like someone you just met offering you a foot rub.  I had never really considered Bypass. But since she's brought it up, I can think of nothing else.  I mean, it scares me. Just the thought of someone cutting my stomach down to the size of my thumb.  That shit is pretty permanent. I dunno. Sounds dangerous to me. So, I start Googling it, searching for good and bad.  Well, I found alot of bad.  Almost a 2% death rate........thats a huge amount of people.  Some of them suffer for up to 8 weeks before they kick off. Crikey. So, I will be catagorically turning down this opprotunity.  I choose life.  I mean, dont get me wrong, it has a certain appeal.  Alot of the stories I read were people who lost all the weight and have no complications.  It would be a dream come true if someone could assure me 100% that I wasnt going to die.  Also, eating a thimble full of food 6X a day is just friggin stupid.  Who can do that?  I love food too much.  I think if I had to, I could do it but I wouldnt be very happy.

That said, I am still fat. I'm unhappy with my body but right now I just dont have the energy to change it.  If my doctor offers me a gym membership and a personal chef, I'll definately take him up on it.  Until I can get myself back into the right frame of mind I'll just do what I can. That sounds sad doesnt it.?  I dont mean it that way. I'm actually pretty happy overall, my life does not suck. 

Well, I re-read this post and it does sound pretty depressing. Sorry. Not intended. 

Tata! 

Days are creeeeeeeeeeping by

Only 12 more days till class starts! Yay.  I'm alittle bored, can you tell?. Yeah, there just isnt that much to do lately and I've resorted to playing backgammon online for 3 hours most days.  Very sad. I am getting alot of reading done.....I think I've finished 6 novels in the past 2 weeks.  I tell myself to enjoy it while I can. 

We started burning the piles of wood out back. Well, sort of.  They dont want to burn too much.  I went out today and stoked one side but its already dead again.  I dont think we will get rid of it without a little petroleum help.

Ok, time to make dinner.

Tata!

Can you believe it? April 28

Joe loves his job, and I'm happy that he does.  He works very odd hours but we're both ok with that.  But when he has more than 2 days off in a row he starts to drive me batty.  He just doesnt know what to do with himself.  See the problem is....there is so much to do that he doesnt know where to start.  Today I took him to Lowe's and told him to buy everything he needed to do this project he wants to do.  So we priced everything and totaled it up and it looked like a reasonable price that we could handle......and then he hems and haws and says "forget it".  He had bitched about doing this project for weeks and now he "doesnt feel the time is right".  Okay, so what do you feel like doing then?  Um, lets just go home.  Uh, no.  You're going to buy something to keep you busy before we leave here. So we argue and I get so fed up, we leave empty handed. See, and whats going to happen is this....let me do alittle fortune telling.  Scenario: I start school on May 15th and will have absolutely NO free time.  On May 16th he'll want to start a very complex project and he'll need my help lifting or nailing something every 20 minutes or so. Ultimately I either kill him or study in my car on the side of the highway with my kids in the backseat. 

Ok, other than that, today has been lovely.  Its 75 and mild, the wind is blowing alittle and the sky is cloudless.  The back 2 acres has been cleared of brush but we cant start burning until May 1.  Once we burn all the debris, we can bring in someone to grade the land and maybe add some topsoil.  Its going to take some time but eventually it will be grassy and nice.  I wanted to buy a nice shed to put all my lawn stuff in but ,of course, Joe assures me he can build a shed cheaper and wont let me get the shed I want. 

Anyway, Averys bus is coming so I have to go.

Toodles.