Stress and my brain.

It's been a long month. Why. I dunno. Stress i guess. Stress does funny things to me. It makes my heart go all wonky. It makes me snap at my kids and give my husband the hairy eyeball. It also inspires me and gets my creativity going. Yesterday I started writing another book. By accident. Um, yeah, I just sat down and before I realized it, I had a first chapter.  I dont know what it is yet. It's going to evolve.

We talk about houses. It seems to be our favorite topic to argue about lately.  He's home for a week and that length of time is hard. I'm not used to having him around that much. And he whines. And he makes messes he never cleans up. I breath deeply and hold my tongue most of the time. Its hard, its takes everything in me to refrain from what I want to say.  I remind myself that its not worth the aggravation.  I think that builds up behind the default stress. I stay optimistic and try to make him feel the same. Doesnt work.

I have finals in 2 weeks. I know alot. But  always feel like its not enough.  I may get two B's and its eating away at my confidence. I hate B's, I loathe B's.  They are like first runner up. First loser. It's depressing. I know I'm being unreasonable. I blame it on my Obsessive/Compulsive disorder.

I'm ok. I'll suffer through.  Not the end of the world. Its actually a very good time to write.....so I guess that's what I'll do.

April snow showers?

Woke up to SNOW this morning. Three days ago it was close to 90.  Boggles the mind.

The kids are out of school until the 16th and I'll be missing school because of it. I'm still trying to do at least an hour or two of schoolwork every day so I dont fall too far behind.  This Thursday I have an exam that I cant miss, so the kids will be coming with me when I take it. Fun.

All that I have left to do for my pre-surgical workup is the bloodwork.  I'm going to try and get that done this week.  I have to go in fasting.  Once the bloodwork is done, my insurance company has to appove me.  That should take a few weeks.

I registered for next semester and I'll be fully loaded.  History, Speech, Physics, Physics Lab, Statistics, and an online PE class.  After next semester I will have only 7 classes left until I can graduate with an AS. So I'm hoping to be done Summer 08 (fingers crossed).

Anyway, thats it.  We were supposed to go to an outdoor easter egg hunt today but I have to imagine its going to be cancelled. So I guess we'll be hanging at the homestead.

Tata!

Spring? Is that you?

Today it was 64, very nice. The next two days it will be 75 and 80. Wow. Was there even a winter? I swear it seems like we had two weeks of winter and now its gone.

School is going ok.  I have my last mid-term this Thursday and its a big one, BIO. I got a 94 on my Math, a 84 on my Religion, a 94 on my Bio Lab and a 86 on my History. Not as good as I would have liked but A's and B's. My spring break is next week. I'm going to have a marvelous time doing nothing.

Thats about it for now. Tata!

Hi, my name is Michelle. I'm a 24 addict.

Well, the heart scan went well and I'm not dying anytime soon. (I was going to add some fun pictures but my puter is damn slow today.)

I've pretty much caught up on all the school work I missed. After missing 2 Labs I still managed to get an 87 on the midterm. Not bad. I took my history midterm yesterday and it was pretty easy so I'm hoping for an A. Bio and religion are this week.

Mom decided not to come back this winter. She starts work this month and is running low on funds. She'll be back for my surgery this spring/summer.

As for the surgery, I've passed the cardiac screening. I have my pulmonary screening on Monday and then a psych and nutrition appointment next month. I'm hoping for a date in May, after classes let out. That will give me the whole summer to heal.

It was almost 70 degrees here yesterday and it looks like another warm one today. That would be great if winter was really over!

Well, today I will be watching 24. I'm into season 3 and I'm definately addicted.