Intake yesterday:
4 oz. chocolate soy milk
Kashi waffle
handful of popcorn
1/2 small order meat/beans nachos
4 tiny dill pickles
7 french fries with mustard
Sucks, i know. I really am trying but when I think of protein my stomach just clenches. I'm eating oatmeal this morning and will force down some lunchmeat today.
The hair turned out ok, Joe likes it. Oh and 165 this morning, wheeee.
Thats it for now. Tata.
Coloring my hair today. Going dark red. I'll post a picture once it dries.
Yesterday I made some questionable food choices. What is it with Taco Bell? It calls to me. I hate their beans but the Nachos sans cheese taste so damn good. Meat, beans and chips. Problem is....I eat too fast (because of the OH MY DOG these are good factor) and eat too much (by too much I mean half a small order). I must be on the low end of the learning curve too because I've done it twice in 3 days. Stoopid.
I noticed this morning that my backside has slid partways down the back of my thighs. Good grief. No wonder it always feels like I'm sitting in a bowl of jello.
Today I will attempt to take the kids to Bee Movie. I'm hoping for a deserted theater but know its going to be madness. I hate the mall. Anyway, time to go get something done. Tata.
Biggest regret of RNY??? Now I'm allergic to all dairy. Seriously. Not just "lactose intolerant". ALLERGIC! Kills me. I was the queen of all dairy before surgery. I dont think I had a meal that didnt include some form of the creamy goodness. Soy sucks. I just drank 4 oz. of Continents Soy chocolate milk and......so far my stomach isnt queasy. I say so far because it usually takes an hour or so to be sure. At least this one didnt taste like chocolate ass crack and its a Light version so the calories are acceptable. Shit, I need the calories anyway. On average I'm eating 500 a day so I guess a few extra wont hurt me now. I was looking for a soy cheese (because dammit I MISS CHEESE!) and every brand says the same thing on the back "CONTAINS LACTOSE". Uh. Lactose? If its made of soy why does it have friggin lactose in it???! Stupid lactose.
Short story: The old man was working on the electrical shit in the house yesterday and it was getting close to dinner. Me: I have to cook soon. Can you please turn the power on? HIM: No. I got more shit to do. Why dont you go get some pizza? Me: I have pizza in the freezer dammit! I dont want to spend $30 on take out! HIM: Tough shit. Its either that or PB and J. So my kids start whining and yep....we drive into town for pizza. Of course I cant eat pizza, being that it will KILL me (but I'm not bitter or anything). I wasnt having an issue until we get in the car with the take out boxes and the smell of freshly cooked pizza coupled with hot wings fills the car with a scent so intoxicating I was considering how sick I would possibly get from one piece. Sad right? We get home and I've sort of come to my senses. While they pig out I have avacado and salsa, my stomach cursing me with every bite. My rational mind says "DUMMY, this is how your ass got so fat to begin with." And I know this but it doesnt make it any easier.
I'm officially 166 lbs this morning (wake, pee, strip, weigh) and I should be crazy happy right? Dont care. Really. The scale could have read 120 and I would have had the same reaction. Ho hum. I dont think the Zoloft is working. I'm still disinterested in school and watch Food Network any chance I get. Most of the day my head feels too fuzzy to even bother trying to think. I'm taking my vitamin, my Os-cal and my B-12 daily. I dont drink nearly enough waterand my protein intake sucks mostly but I'm trying to improve (i swear). Why do I always feel like I'm whining about the same crap every day. I'm pathetic.
Anyway, enough for now. Tata.
No matter how much I drink it feels like its not enough. Every morning I chug a 20 oz bottle before breakfast, I drink another during my first class and try to get another down on the way home. Why does it feel like I only pee once a day? Except at night, when I'm up every 15 minutes of course. I'm still on the Macrobid for the infection but I have an odd feeling that once I finish it I'll get another. Call it womens intuition.
I've eaten new foods lately. Dill pickles, cous cous, aspargus, and meat and bean nachos (no cheese). I'm still only eating 5 or 6 bites. I pushed it the other day and got that "OWWW" in my chest. Bad monkey, no more nachos for you.
I've noticed that after lunch (usually only happens then) I get sorta sickish/tired. No matter what I eat, I feel the need to lie down. It isnt dumping....I dont know what it is. After an hour or so I'm better but feel alittle "hungover", like my stomach is sore. Its a real bitch and I hope it stops soon.
My attitude has improved (you can thank the Zoloft for that) but I'm still not feeling like myself. My cooking impulse has calmed down. I'm doing more homework. There's still something wrong with me though.
Anyway, its Friday. Yay. Joe is working all weekend so its me and the kids. (Picture my excitement) Bye for now. Tata.
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