Thursday

I'm so tired.  I shouldnt be tired, I should be rested, yes?  Way too much home improvement for me.  It seems to be the focus of every damn day.  I'm even out of money and we keep doing projects. I just wanted to take a day and do NOTHING. Seriously, I had some things ( cleaning my bathroom, doing some chores, napping) that I wanted to do. I felt GUILTY because I wasnt flagellating around the house, working on every project at once. Cmon, I start school on Monday, I think I deserve one day of just doing nothing.

I had an appointment yesterday. I'm considering Gastric Bypass.  I would have preferred LapBand but my insurance wont cover it. So, I'm almost 40 and my BMI is 42. Not good. I'm at risk for diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure and many other fun secondary diseases because of my obesity. Gastric bypass will stop my constant hunger and give me a chance to live out the rest of my life at a normal size. I'm still scared. And I havent committed to it yet. We'll see.

The weather has been in the 40's and 50's lately. This Sat and Sun it will be back up into the 70's.

Thats about it.