April 25

Crikey, 189 this morning. I'm happy. Now if I can just get to 188 by this weekend. Heh, a girl can dream cant she.? Well, my work clothes actually feel like they should now. That was a relief, because if I had to go up one more size I might just have committed a homicide. All my skinny clothes (12's and 14s) stare at me from my closet, mocking me. I screwed up the courage to try on (or attempt to try on) some of those smug little buggers the other day. I shouldnt have. I couldnt get any of my bloated body into anything I tried. Its hard to imagine that not so long ago I was comfortably WEARING these same clothes. And theyre so small and cute and so much more stylish than the sacks I'm wearing now. Have I mentioned that on May 1st we can wear shorts at work? Except me of course. I'd rather not show off my cheesy ass and legs to complete strangers, thanks anyway. I reserve that pleasure for my husband, hehe. No really. Its not that I'm scared, I'm doing everyone else a favor. Once I drop another 20, I'll consider it.