This is MY life.

Recently I had to delete some not-so-nice comments from someone who will not be named.  I dont know what I did to garner such attention but please dont bother dropping by if you feel my site is "boring and self-absorbed".  I'm sorry you feel that way but this site is pretty much aimed at MY family and friends who live FAR away.  They enjoy watching my progress and reading about my kids.  I suggest you head back to surfing porno or chatting with your "friends" in chatrooms and quit annoying me. Thank you.

This morning my weight was 144.  I'll be hitting the gym after I get rid of Child #2......I mean after I drop her at school.  Class doesnt start till 11 am so I like to take advantage of ANY free time sans kids.  I'm still battling the "eating demon" and find my hands full of carbs everytime I drop my guard.  Tortilla chips, Pringles, and toast seem to be the recurring theme.  I'm going to buy some Spelt bread (supposed to be much better for me) and will no longer be keeping Pringles in the house (soooo tasty dammit) but I already buy whole wheat tortilla chips so I dont think I can improve anything there.  Also the peanut butter we've been using is causing a huge amount of uh.....off-gassing.  Its full of FLAX, nuff said huh?.  I may try another type of peanut butter, it will be appreciated by every nose in the house. HA! Foodwise I feel trapped alot of the time.  I am on the road ALOT so I've found foods that I can pick up on the go.  They arent BAD foods but I spend way too much on the convenience.  A bean burrito at Taco Bell, A Cobb salad at Wawa, a Mandarine Salad at Wendys, A Veggie wrap at Subway.  Not BAD foods at all but I need to get away from doing it so much. Problem is, there is so much I CANT eat it makes the choices at home BORING. NO DAIRY at all. NONE. Check your labels, there is dairy in practically everything. I know, I check.  Some people say Oh just eat alot of meat.  Well, it sounds good in theory but my stomach doesnt accept MEAT most of the time.  Doesnt matter how much I chew it either or if its soaked in some kind of liquid, my stomach has a mind of its own.  And the ensuing PAIN, and I mean PAAAAAIIIIN is so severe and long-lasting that I am very gun-shy of the meats now. Will it change with time? Maybe, possibly but for now I'm limited.  I'm not bitching, dont get me wrong, this is the surgery I chose and I kinda knew this would be the deal.  Its hard to deal with mentally sometimes because you dont want it to define you anymore.  You just want to live and have eating be a secondary thought, but it never is.  Ho hum. So I eat my carbs, keep my sugar low and stay accountable for every crappy thing that goes in my mouth.  Once I know what goes in I can stay at the gym until I burn it all off.  It may not be the best way to do it but right now its working for me and I'm still losing weight (SLOWLY!HA!)

Wow, that was a rant huh? Anyway I need to eat ( 1 Double Fiber wheat toast with peanut butter, 2 egg whites) and then I'm off to the gym to spend 45 minutes on the Elliptical(#7 resistance, ouch!), 30 minutes on the treadmill(3.5 and a #3 incline) and maybe a few free-weights if I have time. Have a good one! Tata.