Daily Plate

Click totals for charts!	Totals:	701	56g	80mg	2,667mg	155g	56g	17g	65g
% of your daily value		68.27%	86.69%	26.67%	111.11%	51.55%	n/a	n/a	130.5%
		Cals	Fat	Cholest	Sodium	Carbs	Sugars	Fiber	Protein

I made up my mind to only eat what I PLANNED to eat today. It has worked so far (3:34 pm).  Damn salt. I ate too much bread today too. Tomorrow I'll cut out bread and add more fruit.

 

Randy Pausch. (Just Google him)  I caught the last half of a story they did on him (Dateline or 48 hours or one of those shows).  Incredible guy. Living with a death sentence and yet he's full of life.  In my recent facination of death I was intrigued.  My psych prof. hadnt heard of him but after watching the webcast of his "Last Lecture" is planning on working it into his lesson plan next semester.  I highly recommend his book by the same name, it just hit the shelves. Its one of those books that make you want to live better and help more people, seriously.  Check it out.

My weight is up to 144. Doesnt seem like a huge change to anyone but me. I feel fat.  I know that my period is about 12-10 days away and now is the time I start eating more. Carbs especially. I dont like being above 140, it makes me nervous. I've been trying to figure out ways to keep my carbs and salt down but impulsively I ALWAYS WANT THEM. I find myself mindlessly grazing on chips and bread.  Today, even with the planned menu, I managed to sneak in corn chips because my son eats chips as a staple and I always make his plate up (which I added to the Daily Plate total and a couple spoonfuls of Light Cool Whip) Its not that bad you say. I know that. Its the principle of the thing. Those things wont put me over the top but they can snowball if I let them go.  I CANT stop buying chips, my autistic son LIVES on them so I'm stuck there. If they werent in the house I probably wouldnt have such a hard time of it. Crap. I'm working on it.

I need clothes. This time last year I weighed almost 250 pounds.  Every stitch of clothing that I wore then is gone, given away. I'm now existing on 2 pairs of jeans, 2 pairs of capris from Goodwill and 5 short sleeved t-shirts (many of which have grease spots on them). The flip flops I wore last year look likeorange peels, all flat in the middle and curled at the ends, its pathetic. I bought a swimsuit (i had to) but I couldnt find an adult size that really fit me so I ended up buying a childs Speedo exactly like the one my 10 year old wears.

Size 16 and fits perfect.

I'm looking forward to getting some sun too, I look like a damn ghost.  I'm still undecided on whether I'm going to wear shorts this summer......my legs look somewhat deflated and veiny, not nice.

Anyway, time to study, I have a stats re-test in the am and I"M FRIGGIN NERVOUS AS HELL. Okay, I'll be fine. Tata.