Well, its been awhile, hasnt it. I've been busy, what with Mom here and her giant dog, the kids getting out of school this week and this damn x-mas thing. sheeesh. We 're also working like crazy to get the house ready to sell. Joe thinks it wont ever sell, I think it will be sold in two weeks at the most. The weather was good until today, got cold and windy. Its still only 58, not bad for Dec.
Gotta run.
Oh yeah, got my final grades today. All A's. Of course.
I've had the weekend to rest and I feel marginally more human. On Saturday I sat at the computer, lost, feeling like I should be pounding out my daily word count. I'm thinking of a premise for a childrens book, it will be shorter and have many more pictures so it shouldnt take me 30 days this time.
This is my last week of classes, we'll be reviewing and wasting time (which is fine with me). Psychology has no written exam, instead we have to give a 3-5 minutes speech to the rest of the class about what we have learned. Piece o cake. English has an exam but we begged and it will be a take home (she is a real sucker). This Friday she gives us a subject and next week we turn in the completed paper. Another piece o cake. Computer has an online exam, 50 multiple choice. She'll be posting the questions on Saturday, we dont have to take the actual test until Thursday. Do I have to say it? Cake. MATH.....the killer. Algebra will be hard. The exam is on everything we've done all semester. Most of it I'm cool with except for maybe the last 5 weeks, much harder stuff. My grade is high so even if I flunk the final I'll get a B. I'm not flunking the final. So there you have it, the next two weeks of my life and then its XMAS BREAK! School doesnt start again until Jan. 15. Woo-Hoo.
See ya! I just started The Demon-Haunted World by Sagan and its soooo good. I'll write again soon!
Yes, many military people are celebrating my novel's conclusion. Wheeeee!
So the book is done. The title is : A World Within. It's approximately 53,000 words long and that comes out to about 210 pages. I feel like I gave birth. I tried to print it out on my printer and the ink ran out. So I kinda printed it at school. I had to sneak because you're not supposed to print more than 20 pages in one sitting. HA! Oh well. Its done and this weekend I'm vegetating.
Thats it for now. I gotta cook.
Well, yesterday was Thanksgiving (or for us just another Thursday) We're not too big on this holiday, probably because we dont have family nearby. I wasnt supposed to cook but ended up pulling a chicken and gravy dinner out at the last minute. I even threw in an apple pie. So today is BLACK FRIDAY. What is so tempting about shopping today? The news showed the stores, people fighting over product, no parking, and serious traffic issues. No thanks. My shopping will start once people go back to work on Monday. Actually I may wait this year until around the 15th. I dread the whole holiday.
I took a night off from BOOK and ended up paying for it big time. Had to write 3,340 words yesterday just to keep up. I think I may have to map out my ending, its going to be hard to wind things up on the 30th unless I know where the story ends. Word total is now 38,330! I rock.
The weather has been crappy for the last 4 days. This morning the sun is out so it looks promising.
Time to get moving! Toodles!
RAIN!
Been raining since yesterday and is supposed to carry on over the weekend. Fabulous, a long weekend stuck in the house with both kids and Joe's working nights.
My research paper is almost done, I have to add a couple more quotes and do my work cited page. Glad I forced myself to work on it last week.
BOOK went over 33,000 words today. I did the math and I'm supposed to write 1,666 words per day to reach 50,000 by Day 30. No sweat, only 8 more days to go.
Tired.....must sleep now.
Night.
30,080!
Wow, you just dont know how good it feels to see that first number become a 3. Today was a lousy day and I wasnt sure those words were going to get done.
I finished Billions&Billions by the late,great Carl Sagan. I must say I loved it. Today I started "On Natural Selection" by Charles Darwin. So far its pretty good. Its only 120 pages, I'll be done in a couple of days.
School is going ok. I had a brainfart on my last math test and got a 75. Sucks. Good thing is, she drops your lowest grade so I'm still golden. I hate exponents!
Joe shot his deer yesterday. He only shoots one per season now. We dont have anywhere to put all that deer meat. He butchered it himself, ewwww. I hate venison, it stinks. I think its a stupid sport, sitting in a tree till a helpless animal comes by and then BAM! Yeah, thats fair. He's spent more money on guns, bows, gas, tree-stands, clothing and a million other camoflaged do-hickeys I probably could have bought a years worth of groceries with all that money. I hate hunting and I hope someday he outgrows it. There, thats my 2 cents.
Did I mention that we got tv? Friggin tv, the scourge of the friggin earth. I swear we were doing just fine without it. They swore they couldnt live without it anymore, I was outvoted. Friggin noiseboxes.
Tomorrow is Sunday and I've sworn to work on my research paper. Its due on the 30th. I'm about 3/4 done. Ugh.
Ok, I have to get to bed.
22,260. That doesnt include todays words. Here's a taste.
Kelly looked at the clock, 10 am. She had showered, eaten some toast and was now examining the sore injection site. The skin still looked bumpy and now had a purple tint to it. Could just be bruising she thought. Her stomach rolled and she headed for the bathroom. Leaning against the sink she looked into her tired bloodshot eyes. I’m sure if I get some sleep I’ll be good as new when I get up. She brushed her long auburn hair, the repetitive motion soothing her nerves. Her head was suddenly very light, the room had a fuzzy distorted quality and there was a faint buzzing she couldn’t make out. Is that the doorbell? The brush fell from her hand and she gripped the doorscasing for balance but before she could take a step, Kelly collapsed to the floor. Her empty green eyes stared at the wall, one eyeball bulging rhythmically. From the underside of the curved orb a minute black feeler appeared, only to slowly retreat back into Kelly’s skull. Her stomach surrendered her meager breakfast, which now lay in a pool of mucus on the floor. As if on autopilot, Kelly’s body removed her tee shirt and underwear, her eyes staring blankly, she climbed into bed. The oily appendage reappeared, this time from Kelly’s open mouth. There was a sound, like a bee’s hive, muffled by bone and skin, vibrating out of her. As her body temperature rose and the injected intruder worked its magic, Kelly Green became something else. Bone density increased, cellular activity on a sub-atomic level skyrocketed, and her exterior showed no changes as inside she grew and transformed. The nanobots that Dr. Axan had given Kelly were rebuilding her and, in a sense, reprogramming her brain. Over the next 9 hours Kelly Green would become a not-quite-human tool that GenLabs would use to find its most precious and dangerous creation, Pi.
I guess you'll have to wait until December 1st to read the whole thing!
I thought I'd give you a writing update. Its day 11 and I've had a few bad days but mostly good I must say. I'm doing usually about 1,600 words a day. The best places to write are 1. The computer lab at school (something inspiring about hearing 20 other people typing) 2. In my car, in the parking lot of Sydneys school. 3. Between 10 and 12 pm when everyone is sleeping. This laptop has logged alot of hours in the last few weeks. I love this damn thing, I carry it everywhere. Anyway, BOOK is up to 19,000 words. By the 15th of this month I should have 25,000. Half-way mark. I may reward myself with a nap.
Fall is in full swing. Leaves flying and deer everywhere. My favorite time of year and I'm spending 90% of it inside writing. Oh well, theres always next Fall.
2 weeks until Thanksgiving. We'll be going out this year, Joe's working the night shift that day. We have 4 days off for the holiday. I'll be working on BOOK like crazy to try and get ahead so I can coast through to the 30th. Finals are 2 weeks later so I need to be able to focus on school in December.
Anyway, thats about it. Hope you're well, write me sometime so I know you're alive.
Shell
This guy is a genius!
Well, I bet you're asking yourself what you did to deserve another post so soon huh? Actually you're lucky you're getting anything because I spent 30 minutes typing up an entry and AOL decided to eat it...GONE! Which was a pity too because it was a good one, really funny. I cant promise you that for this one, I'm still pissed off.
Ok, lets see. Oh yeah. I was sitting in psychology class the other day listening to my professor drone on when he said something that actually caught my attention. Wait wait wait. I have to backtrack first. Ok, everyone knows that I've been working on a novel for about 2 years now ( at least I think they know). Anyway, if you didnt know, you do now. So, I've been having problems with it and didnt know what was going on. Back to the classroom. My proffesor says " We expect perfection in most things we do and it isnt possible so we give up or ....blah blah blah....He was right!!! I couldnt move forward with the novel, I was dead-ended by my own crazy vision of perfection. I kept revising and changing things, never to finish the damn thing. Ok, so now I know whats wrong with me, how do I fix it? It wasnt the answer I wanted. In fact it was terrible. START OVER. Brand new. And write for quantity, not quality. Have a deadline. No editing allowed. No backtracking. What goes onto the paper stays there. I started today and by November 30th midnight I will have written a 50,000 word novel. It may not be good but it will be a novel. Once its finished I can decide if its worth revising. So, there it is. Today I wrote about 1,600 words. I dont mind if people read it while I'm writing it, I have 3 internet friends reading my dailies. They've promised to be gentle and not criticize too much, realizing that it is an EXPERIMENT and also my first real book. Oh, another thing is, I have no plot, no character outlines, no storyline, nothing. Everyday is a surprise. Let me know if you'd like to get the dailies as well.
Sydney as "Queen Of The Darned"
There's no trick or treating out in the bush so she tagged along with a friend of hers that lives closer to town. She made out with about 15 pounds of loot. Avery stayed home this year, he hates that shit anyway.
The good thing about Fall around here isthe lack of BUGS. No more dive-bombing wasps or huge bumble bees, the grasshoppers have all gone and we haven't seen a black fly in weeks. WooHoo! Trust me, its something to woohoo about. Now its lady bugs, they're everywhere. But at least they don't bite.
I came home today and there were 15 of these things in my house. I have no idea how they got in.
Well, its after 10 so I'm off to bed. I'll write again when I can.
Toodles.
Yes kids, tomorrow is my birthday! Whoopie!
And thats the last I want to hear about that, thank you. ( Note to Dad: thank you for the card, it was a nice surprise!)
Well October is almost over and the temp has dropped into the 40's most nights. I'm not complaining, I'm enjoying the mildness of it all. The yard is red and orange, leaves flying all over in the wind, its quite a sight to see. Joe finished planting the new lawn, just around the house, and we're hoping it comes up before winter sets in. He's managed to get sick and all other projects have been put on hold until he recovers.
School is plunking right along. I'm getting A's in all my classes so far. I registered for Spring and got into all the classes I needed. I'm still struggling with my research paper due next month but I'm expecting a big push over Thanksgiving break ( considering its due right after the break!). I'm nervous about next summer, my classes start early and last most of the day. I still dont know what I'm gonna do with the kids when Joe cant watch them. I'll figure something out eventually I guess.
I decided a few weeks ago to go ahead and have the Lap Band surgery done. I didnt even know if the military would cover it so I went in last week for a consult. I've been researching Lap Band for a long time and it has a zero death rate. It can also be removed easily if there are any complications ( which there arent many of). The military requires you to meet certain criteria before they will cover it, I meet all of them. So, I'm waiting for a letter ( takes about 14 days) to tell me where I will have the surgery done. As long as you have no other problems ( diabetes, high blood pressure, etc) it can be done as an out-patient surgery. The recovery time is about a week ( till the stitches come out). It could be up to a year before I can get in to have it done though. You have a series of tests that have to be passed and it takes awhile to set them all up. So, there it is. If you want to know more just type Lap Band Surgery into your browser. There is no cutting apart of the stomache, the band will only let your smaller stomach hold 4-6 ounces of food at a time. You stay full longer. There is a very high success rate, I think it will be a good fit for me.
Mom will be coming down sometime in November, I think she's driving this time. We'll be working on sprucing up the house to sell this spring. It'll be nice to have her around, take some of the load off of me. Joe thinks we'll be fighting everyday but I dont think so. She's in a better place now than she was last X-mas, there wont be nearly so much stress.
HA! I'm the short one!
Ok, I gotta go. I'll try to write again soon!
I feel her pain.
Ok, so its Fall Break at school. This means that we get yesterday (Thursday) and today off, no school till Monday. It should be a good thing, yes?! Oh and they make you think its going to be 4 days of relaxation, they lead you on and just before class lets out, BOOM, the hammer drops. "Uh, yes class and for the weekend I'd like you to do some exercises for me......have all of chapter 8, 9, 10, 11, and 12 ready to turn in on Monday. Have a good holiday!" All of my instructors did just that. My Eng. Comp Prof decided it would be fun to write a classification research paper for the weekend. I just finished 9 pages of Math and decided to take a break. I worked on that classification paper last night until 11. When I started falling asleep at the keyboard, I gave up. So today I'll be forcing myself to kick it up a notch and get everything done by Saturday, I need at least 1 day off. ( So I can catch up on housework, HA!)
Well thank goodness for Fall. My power bill has been cut in half since my AC isnt running as much. We are still having some 80-90 degree days but mostly its down to the 70's. This morning was friggin chilly.
I'm starting to get nervous about selling the house next Spring.
I know the market isnt good right now but I have a friend that works in real estate in Prince George and she says I have nothing to worry about. I want to get back all the money I put in to it, I wont be outrageous. We'll probably put it up for sale next April. I'm hopeful.
We've been scouting the areas we like. It will not be as rural, HA! In fact, we'll be living in much the same kind of area as we were in Newport News. Sydney needs friends and a neighborhood, she's dying out here in the boonies. She's very upset that we cant trick or treat this year. I just keep telling her, next year we will do all the stuff you cant do now. There are a few areas, just above Colonial Heights and just below Richmond, that we really like. The good thing is Joe will be closer to work and I will be closer to Richmond (VCU). Its been a really stressful year, I cant wait to get back to civilization. Dont get me wrong, buying another house and the whole moving/changing schools/learning a new area shit will be even harder but we have to get out of here, we just arent country people.....well Joe says he is but he isnt the one that has to drive 30 minutes for a gallon of milk either. He hates this house with a passion (he cant tell you exactly why he hates it though) and blames me for us living here. Its a good thing I have thick skin or I might of taken that as an insult, HA!
These arent my neighbors. Mine have less teeth.
So, thats about it. Oh, its hunting season in case you didnt know. Bow hunting started a few weeks ago and shotgun season starts in a week or two. I just love waking up to gunfire, dont you? And its so fun to dodge deer as they leap out in front of your car during the rutting season. I used to drive the backroads at night doing 50, until I almost plowed into a couple of deer mating in the road and almost wound up in the ditch. There are way too many animals around here, its creepy.
Ok, now I really do have to go. Goddamn paper to write. I'll check back soon! Tata!
I love October, and not just because I was born this month. I'm boycotting my birthday anyway, I'll be 21 every year from now on. The humidity leaves and the air is cool. After such a miserable summer I'm excited for fall.
School is okay. I was sick last week and it was a real pain to try and keep up when all I wanted to do was curl up and die. I managed though. Got a 100 on my math test and a 94 on my english paper. I have a huge computer test this Friday. I was worried but now I'm pretty confident. No school next Monday so I have a long weekend to work on my research paper. Registration for Spring starts on Oct 16 and I've already picked my classes Math 101, History 102, Religion 201, Biology 101 and Biology Lab 101. Sounds heavy but it will be fine. The 2 classes I'll have the most trouble with will be Math and History. I'll be going to school this next summer too. From May 15,07 to June 9, 07 I'll take Chemistry 101 and Chemistry Lab 101. Then from June 12, 07 to July 7, 07 I'll take Biology 102 and Biology Lab 102. Finally from July 10,07 to August 4, 07 I'll take both English 102 and Speech 101. I'll have a few weeks off before I start Fall classes which will consist of : Math 105, Chem110 & Chem 110 Lab, PE 107, History 101, Sociology 201. And last but not least my last semester will be SPRING 08 (hurrah!) Organic Chemistry, Microbiology 211, PE 108, Physics 101, and Art Appreciation 231. Sounds like alot huh? HA! It is, I'm fast-tracking, which means I'm taking compressed courses......its harder but so far I'm doing fine. I should have a 3.8-4.0 GPA this term. My financial aid requires me to have only a 3.0. I'm golden. By April of 2008 I'll be applying to Virginia Commonwealth University in Richmond for their Applied Sciences program. So, there it is, the next 2 years of my life.
Once I get into VCU, I'll go through some orientation classes and then start more advanced classes like Hematology, clinical immunology and pathogenic bacteriology. The basic clinical sciences program only runs 2 years but I may try applying for their fast track Masters program, that runs 3-4 years.
Joe finally finished the shed, the inspector passed it last week. I'm so glad too, now we can get our stuff out of storage. Lets see, what else? Ummmm. Oh yeah, Sydney starts Viola lessons this week. The county offers free lessons and renting the instrument is cheap so we thought we'd give it a try. She isnt happy that she'll have to practise out in the back yard.
Ok, well, that about does it. I'll try and write again this month. Tata!
Sydney is taxing my last nerve. I love the child but she cant do anything I ask her to do without making a federal case out of it. Why did I have kids?
School is going ok. I had my first big math test on Friday and will find out how I did tomorrow. So far no big worries.
Its turning Fall here finally and the humidity has dropped. Its supposed to rain tonight.
Joe is dragging his butt when it comes to finishing the shed. He has the ramp and stairs to build and some finish stuff to nail on the edges. He keeps putting it off though.
The last two days we've been out scoping neighborhoods where we think we may want to move next year. We found a very nice area between Colonial Heights and Richmond. The houses are a little over our price range but I'm hopeful that it will be a buyers market next year and we can get one cheaper. I have to look into the schools in the area and make sure there is everything we need, i wont move again until Sydney graduates from High School.
Ok, well, thats it for now. Talk attcha later!
Third week of school and so far I'm doing well. I wrestled with a tough english paper last night, doing quotes and all that grammar shit drives me nutty. I got a 92 on my first math test but we had another test yesterday and I think I bombed it. I sometimes go blank with math, i hate it so much. Three times a week I have an extra hour of math with my teacher, its helping. My pysch class is tedious, the instructor is whacked in the head. We dont do much in there and never have homework, its pretty much a gimmeee class. Computer lab is ok. She's not a very good teacher, skips around way too much. She's not coming in this Friday so she gave us a group project to do. My partners are both 18 and one of them has never had a computer, ugh. Anyway, thats an update on school.
Been raining for 2 days, hope it stops soon.
My Uncle Bobby died last weekend. They did an autopsy but its pretty apparent that he died from complications from alcoholism. I didnt know him, I think I only met him three times. He wasnt very nice. Moms going to take his ashes to the beach and spread them.
Nothing else new, just plugging along. Tata.
It rained all day yesterday, but it was just a sprinkling compared to the deluge we're getting now. Sheets of driving rain and it looks like its going to continue for a few days. School is cancelled so I'm home today, will work on math because I need it.
Well, here it is, the night before I start school. I'm nervous, excited, and shitting my pants all at the same time. I'll be fine, it will be the first few months of adjusting that will be the worst.
I finally got Joe to hire someone to shingle the roof of the shed. He is just way too big to be up there, I was worried. So we've hired this little skinny guy and the roof should be complete by Tuesday. It will be a relief to have that stupid shed finished.
The kids only have a week left till they start school. This will be the first year that I wont be there on thier first day. I'm sending Joe, HA! That will be such fun for him.
Ok, so thats about it. I'll try and squeeze in a post when i can. No promises. Tata!
Well, today is my 16 year anniversary. Incredible that we made it this far, after all we've been through. We arent doing anything special today but on Saturday we're going to our favorite Japanese resteraunt for a treat. I'm feeling alittle edgy and know its only because I'm home all day with both kids, we all go alittle crazy sitting here waiting for school to start. I get to go buy my books next Monday,yay.
Anyway, thats pretty much it. Joe is getting the roof on the shed this week, he refuses any help and wont call anyone to help him. So he complains alot and grouses at me. He makes me feel guilty because I'm not out there sweating my ass off too. I cant help him though, I cant risk myself up on that roof. Theres just too much that could happen and then what?.....who takes care of everything? him? ha. So, I'll write again when something exciting happens! Tata.
The heat is finally gone (for now). By gone I mean its down to about 95. Sydney comes home today, its nice when she's gone but I'll be glad to get her back. Also I just got back my tax return yesterday! woohoo. I paid off my car and put the rest on my credit card. So now all we have is 1. the house 2. Joes Truck 3. the shed loan 4. and two credit cards for about 5,200. I'm so psyched. We've never had so few bills. So now I start working on the credit card that I cut up which has 4,500 on it. Money is such a pain in the ass.
The shed is coming along. We got the windows and door in. All the trusses are up and he's starting to put the plywood on the roof. It should be waterproof by the end of Aug. Sweet!
Thats about it, pretty boring. Just over 2 weeks till school starts.
Tata!
Excitement Excitement! Daddy pulled in today with my moms laptop. She only used it once and its like X-mas in Aug. Anyway, its exciting for me.
I havent written much lately because well, I've been writing elsewhere. I started writing sporadically on another site, just storyline and basic characters. What was once a short story has grown to much more. It isnt anything i would attempt to publish but it keeps my mind working. I start school in less than 3 weeks and the days are agonizingly loooooooong.
the heat is unbearable most days. today was ok. tomorrow looks bad. Tata.
Ok so it was 102 yesterday and the heat index got up to 112. Three days of that so far. I have to imagine my roof has a melting point, I hope we dont reach it.
Nothing much new, same shit different day. 5 weeks till school starts, it cant come quick enough. Joe is building the trusses for the shed now. Avery is halfway through Happy Acres and is doing just fine. Syd had a 4-H camp last weekend and now she's just hanging out with me until the next camp in Aug. I'm completely bored and spend alot of time online.
I'll write more when something happens!
Tata.
Holy smokes its hot!
Joe is outside right now, working on the swingset. I however refuse to leave the house. Its 100 and the humidity makes it feel like the inside of my oven. The poor man has been working so hard to get the swings finished before he goes back to work this Thurs. He also got the footing for the shed poured. Anyway, he's on a mission and nothing will thwart his efforts. Until he passes out at least.
We had a family day at Kings Dominion last Sunday. It was good/bad and at times it was horrific. Much like today it was about 100 degrees out. All of us suffered heat exhaustion and a record amount of damage to our feet. There were so many people in the park that it was uncomfortable and we ended up arguing and just being plain miserable. Once we got home we decided that we wouldnt go again when it was that hot (and wear better footwear.) I took Sydney to 4-H Camp yesterday morning, it lasts a week and she's been looking forward to it for awhile. Its so quiet when she isnt here. I pick her up on Friday and I hope she remembered to use her sunscreen.
Avery starts summer school tomorrow. I'm hoping it will be worthwhile and not just a waste of gas. He'll go for about 8 weeks, 4 days a week, 3 hours a day.
We need a pool so bad. I'm saving up to get an above-ground pool for next summer, one thats big enough for all of us. Joe can build a nice deck around it, it will be a lifesaver.
Well, tonight we are cooking rib-eyes on the grill (once the temp drops), drinking some lovely american beer and setting off some illegal fireworks (bucket of water standing by). My closest neighbors will be partying tonight, they are sure to light off some too. Once the festivities are done we will retire to watch "Sleeper Cell".....a series from HBO. I just finished watching "Carnivale" season 2 and it was fabulous, I cant wait for season 3. After Sleeper Cell I'm going to start "Six Feet Under" which I hear is good too. See, you dont need cable TV to watch good shows! Its so much cheaper too.
Ok, time to go. Tata!
Last week of June, it went so fast. Next week Sydney has 4-H camp for the whole week. Avery starts summer school next Wed. I'll be Moms Taxi all of July & August.
Now that the rain has stopped and the ground is drying we will try putting up the swings. We're waiting on the revised permit to come back so he can start the shed. The heavyy rain washed away about half the grass seed in the backyard, it looks a mess.
Well, I'm off for my mammogram this morning. Wish me luck!
Tata.
Well, Alberto's rain hit us last night and hasnt let up yet. We started building the kids swingset yesterday and were planning to pour the cement today, guess not. Joe has the day off but went up to the plant to give blood, thank goodness. He makes me crazy when he's in the house too long, especially when its raining. I swear that mans favorite pasttime is bitching about something......usually over and over again. Ugh.
The kids are out half day for the rest of the week and then next week is summer vacation. woopee. cant wait.
Anyway, i should go do some laundry. Tata.
Perfect score........of course. I am so anxious to continue but this will be it till Fall. Anyway, Sydney still has a fever and I think I'm starting to run one too. We may be taking a trip to the doc tomorrow.
Tata.
Just finished putting the kids to bed and finally the whining has ceased. I dread long weekends, especially at the new house. There is nothing for them to do outside yet and I'm broke so going anywhere is out of the question. Sydney did get to go to her friends house for most of Saturday but the rest of it was home with me. I love my kids but they're so easily bored. I cant be the cruise director all weekend. My sanity suffers.
Anyway, this will be my last week of school for this class. I cant believe it went by so fast. I've really enjoyed it and I cant wait till August to start full time. Its really a dream come true.
The humidity jumped up three days ago, officially kicking off summer for us. We had a long rainy spell but now its been dry for awhile. I need some rain for that new seed out back, I'd love alittle grass this year.
Well, I'm gonna play some backgammon then hit the hay. Night!
I have a gigantic exam tomorrow. My eyes are burning from all the pollen in the air, its miserable. I dont feel like studying. Ho-hum. You know I'm going to though, I think I'd have to actually lose an eye before I wouldnt study.
The back yard is completed and Joe is out there now seeding it. It looks good and in a few days he'll start building the shed. I'm hoping he'll have it built by July.
Anyway, nothing else going on.
Tata.
So, finally the guy came to clear the land out back. We had some bouts of rain which delayed him. Yesterday he showed up and they got to work. He said they should be finished today but I dont think so, there is so much to do. I'll be glad to have all that bush gone so we can plant some grass.
Anyway, I have my second test today. I didnt study quite as hard as I did for the first one. I know that sounds funny but I tend to overdo it, so this time I only studied the things she said to study specifically. I hope I do well., I'll let you know!
Tata!
Well, tomorrw is the last day of my first week back at school. Hehe. So far I love it. I mean, its alot of work but I still love it. I had my first test today and got 102/100. Nice huh. I've already passed in all of my homework for the whole course.....I finished it the first day . 100% on everything. I thought I was going to have a hard time assimilating back into school, boy was I wrong. I'm going to see if I can take some internet classes this summer.....I wouldnt be able to go to regular class because of the kids schedules. Anyway, I have to go study. I'll write again in a week or so.
Tata.
We hired someone to finish clearing the back lot. He'll be coming this week and I'm very excited to see the end result.
School starts on Monday so I may not post for a few weeks, depending on how heavy my workload is.
Tata!
Hello. So, here we are. I just want to mention quickly that my husband said at dinner tonight " Do you realize that we've eaten dinner together almost every night? I bet thats because we dont have TV anymore. I like it." My husband actually said that he's glad we dont have TV anymore AND he added "Everything on TV is crap anyway." I almost fell over. We have been doing more family-oriented things since we moved into this house whereas before, everyone had their own TV and just zoned out all night. Its an understatement to say I'm pleased.
Well, all my tests came back and I'm in perfectly good health. Except I'm still nauseous and get so dizzy I fall down. So. She told me to go home and come back when it gets worse. HAHA! She smiled as she added " If its a brain tumor you will get worse quickly" ........I'm not sure I'm going to be going back to this doctor. This is the same woman that was very upset when I turned down weight loss surgery. That subject came up again too. She's stunned that I would turn it down. On the other hand I'm stunned that she thinks I would consider a 2 in 10 chance at death desirable. I'd take those odds if it was the lottery, no doubt.
Ok, time to get moving. Tata!
I fasted last night and this morning for my scary needle bloodwork this morning. No eating ,drinking, etc..........oh, but by the way, you'll have to pee in a cupp too. Huh? I think I may need to ingest some water for that. Ok, well, start drinking now. Damn, I'm gonna be here all day. < I drink and drink and only succeed in making myself nauseaous and waterlogged.> No pee. Hmmmmm , maybe walking with help. <walk,walk,walk> After 3 tries, there is finally enough in the cup for testing. I hate the hospital lab. I was coming out of the bathroom and a guy was standing right there watching me walk out with my tiny specimen. Not really embarrassing......just weird. You give him that "hi-dont-look-at-my-pee" smile. Ugh.
Anyway, its raining and raining. Joe is home. Every 5 minutes he has to tell me how much he hates the rain. I swear, I think I liked it better when he was gone 6 months of the year. I start school next Monday, I'm so looking forward to it.
Tata.
Ok, I'm fat. I know this, its not a new revelation. I've dieted my whole life. What a waste of time. I'm still fat. Anyway, my doctor seems to think I need gastric bypass. I was abit taken back when she said it. I mean, thats alot like someone you just met offering you a foot rub. I had never really considered Bypass. But since she's brought it up, I can think of nothing else. I mean, it scares me. Just the thought of someone cutting my stomach down to the size of my thumb. That shit is pretty permanent. I dunno. Sounds dangerous to me. So, I start Googling it, searching for good and bad. Well, I found alot of bad. Almost a 2% death rate........thats a huge amount of people. Some of them suffer for up to 8 weeks before they kick off. Crikey. So, I will be catagorically turning down this opprotunity. I choose life. I mean, dont get me wrong, it has a certain appeal. Alot of the stories I read were people who lost all the weight and have no complications. It would be a dream come true if someone could assure me 100% that I wasnt going to die. Also, eating a thimble full of food 6X a day is just friggin stupid. Who can do that? I love food too much. I think if I had to, I could do it but I wouldnt be very happy.
That said, I am still fat. I'm unhappy with my body but right now I just dont have the energy to change it. If my doctor offers me a gym membership and a personal chef, I'll definately take him up on it. Until I can get myself back into the right frame of mind I'll just do what I can. That sounds sad doesnt it.? I dont mean it that way. I'm actually pretty happy overall, my life does not suck.
Well, I re-read this post and it does sound pretty depressing. Sorry. Not intended.
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Only 12 more days till class starts! Yay. I'm alittle bored, can you tell?. Yeah, there just isnt that much to do lately and I've resorted to playing backgammon online for 3 hours most days. Very sad. I am getting alot of reading done.....I think I've finished 6 novels in the past 2 weeks. I tell myself to enjoy it while I can.
We started burning the piles of wood out back. Well, sort of. They dont want to burn too much. I went out today and stoked one side but its already dead again. I dont think we will get rid of it without a little petroleum help.
Ok, time to make dinner.
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Joe loves his job, and I'm happy that he does. He works very odd hours but we're both ok with that. But when he has more than 2 days off in a row he starts to drive me batty. He just doesnt know what to do with himself. See the problem is....there is so much to do that he doesnt know where to start. Today I took him to Lowe's and told him to buy everything he needed to do this project he wants to do. So we priced everything and totaled it up and it looked like a reasonable price that we could handle......and then he hems and haws and says "forget it". He had bitched about doing this project for weeks and now he "doesnt feel the time is right". Okay, so what do you feel like doing then? Um, lets just go home. Uh, no. You're going to buy something to keep you busy before we leave here. So we argue and I get so fed up, we leave empty handed. See, and whats going to happen is this....let me do alittle fortune telling. Scenario: I start school on May 15th and will have absolutely NO free time. On May 16th he'll want to start a very complex project and he'll need my help lifting or nailing something every 20 minutes or so. Ultimately I either kill him or study in my car on the side of the highway with my kids in the backseat.
Ok, other than that, today has been lovely. Its 75 and mild, the wind is blowing alittle and the sky is cloudless. The back 2 acres has been cleared of brush but we cant start burning until May 1. Once we burn all the debris, we can bring in someone to grade the land and maybe add some topsoil. Its going to take some time but eventually it will be grassy and nice. I wanted to buy a nice shed to put all my lawn stuff in but ,of course, Joe assures me he can build a shed cheaper and wont let me get the shed I want.
Anyway, Averys bus is coming so I have to go.
Toodles.
I think I attract bad luck. I dont think I'm cursed or anything but I think people who are cursed are drawn to me. I'd like to just go a month without anything shitty happening....30 days, thats not alot to ask is it?
Avery has developed a tic. I know that sounds stupid, considering he has stims all the time. but I know the difference between a stim and a tic. We were forced to see a stand-in Doc today.....all I wanted was a consult from her to neurology. She argued with me for 20 minutes about the tic and I finally just told her "Give me the damn consult". She typed in the consult and left without so much as a bye-bye. Just because you CAN be a doctor, doesnt mean you SHOULD be one. Dumb bitch.
I'm also having a hard time finding care for Avery this summer. It looks as though I may be staying home with him instead of going to school, like I had planned. Makes me angry and then I feel guilty. Guilt pisses me off.
Okay, so its been a bad day. Well, there was one nice thing. I won a crock pot in a raffle. That was a nice way to end a crappy day.
Ok, so here it is...April. I know I havent posted since December. In my defense, I was not in much of a position to post since I was sans computer until March 24. Anyway, things have happened and blah-de-blah. Life and so on, all very boring and not worth repeating. One fabulous thing that I made happen for myself, I'm going to school. I finally know what I want to be when I grow up and will get a chance to realize that dream because of my darling husband (who knows that once I decide something, well, you might as well hitch a ride because its gonna happen whether you bitch or not) He's such a great guy. I will only be taking 9 credit hours this summer because of scheduling with the kids and whatnot. The classes are also accelerated so its going to be like absorbing 16 weeks in 20 days, very intimidating. I'm stoked.
Ok, so thats about it. Oh, Avery had his 12th birthday last Saturday. We didnt have a party because well, he doesnt like them. I gave him presents all week and on Sat. we had a cake. Quiet and stress-free just like he likes.
Prince George has been a huge change for us. Joe is still bitter about some of the problems we had with the builder, I hope he can let it go soon. I love the house. It isnt a mansion but its just what I wanted....big enough for us and easy to navigate. No stairs. A huge master bedroom. I'm happy. The yard needs work but that will come with time. The time I spend driving has increased bigtime......I think everything is 30-40 minutes away...in opposite directions of course. I'm learning to plan days so I can group errands together, saves gas.
Well, thats it. I'll try and post more often in the future.
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