Thursday

Hello.  So, here we are. I just want to mention quickly that my husband said at dinner tonight " Do you realize that we've eaten dinner together almost every night?  I bet thats because we dont have TV anymore.  I like it."  My husband actually said that he's glad we dont have TV anymore AND he added "Everything on TV is crap anyway."  I almost fell over. We have been doing more family-oriented things since we moved into this house whereas before, everyone had their own TV and just zoned out all night.  Its an understatement to say I'm pleased.

Well, all my tests came back and I'm in perfectly good health.  Except I'm still nauseous and get so dizzy I fall down.  So.  She told me to go home and come back when it gets worse.  HAHA! She smiled as she added " If its a brain tumor you will get worse quickly" ........I'm not sure I'm going to be going back to this doctor. This is the same woman that was very upset when I turned down weight loss surgery.  That subject came up again too.  She's stunned that I would turn it down.  On the other hand I'm stunned that she thinks I would consider a 2 in 10 chance at death desirable.  I'd take those odds if it was the lottery, no doubt.

Ok, time to get moving. Tata!

Scary needle

I fasted last night and this morning for my scary needle bloodwork this morning.  No eating ,drinking, etc..........oh, but by  the way, you'll have to pee in a cupp too. Huh?  I think I may need to ingest some water for that. Ok, well, start drinking now.  Damn, I'm gonna be here all day.  < I drink and drink and only succeed in making myself nauseaous and waterlogged.> No pee. Hmmmmm , maybe walking with help. <walk,walk,walk>  After 3 tries, there is finally enough in the cup for testing.  I hate the hospital lab.  I was coming out of the bathroom and a guy was standing right there watching me walk out with my tiny specimen. Not really embarrassing......just weird. You give him that "hi-dont-look-at-my-pee" smile. Ugh.

Anyway, its raining and raining. Joe is home. Every 5 minutes he has to tell me how much he hates the rain.  I swear, I think I liked it better when he was gone 6 months of the year. I start school next Monday, I'm so looking forward to it.

Tata.

Gastric Bypass

Ok, I'm fat.  I know this, its not a new revelation.  I've dieted my whole life. What a waste of time.  I'm still fat.  Anyway, my doctor seems to think I need gastric bypass.  I was abit taken back when she said it.  I mean, thats alot like someone you just met offering you a foot rub.  I had never really considered Bypass. But since she's brought it up, I can think of nothing else.  I mean, it scares me. Just the thought of someone cutting my stomach down to the size of my thumb.  That shit is pretty permanent. I dunno. Sounds dangerous to me. So, I start Googling it, searching for good and bad.  Well, I found alot of bad.  Almost a 2% death rate........thats a huge amount of people.  Some of them suffer for up to 8 weeks before they kick off. Crikey. So, I will be catagorically turning down this opprotunity.  I choose life.  I mean, dont get me wrong, it has a certain appeal.  Alot of the stories I read were people who lost all the weight and have no complications.  It would be a dream come true if someone could assure me 100% that I wasnt going to die.  Also, eating a thimble full of food 6X a day is just friggin stupid.  Who can do that?  I love food too much.  I think if I had to, I could do it but I wouldnt be very happy.

That said, I am still fat. I'm unhappy with my body but right now I just dont have the energy to change it.  If my doctor offers me a gym membership and a personal chef, I'll definately take him up on it.  Until I can get myself back into the right frame of mind I'll just do what I can. That sounds sad doesnt it.?  I dont mean it that way. I'm actually pretty happy overall, my life does not suck. 

Well, I re-read this post and it does sound pretty depressing. Sorry. Not intended. 

Tata! 

Days are creeeeeeeeeeping by

Only 12 more days till class starts! Yay.  I'm alittle bored, can you tell?. Yeah, there just isnt that much to do lately and I've resorted to playing backgammon online for 3 hours most days.  Very sad. I am getting alot of reading done.....I think I've finished 6 novels in the past 2 weeks.  I tell myself to enjoy it while I can. 

We started burning the piles of wood out back. Well, sort of.  They dont want to burn too much.  I went out today and stoked one side but its already dead again.  I dont think we will get rid of it without a little petroleum help.

Ok, time to make dinner.

Tata!